The beginning of the end

I am sitting in bed with, on my left, our marriage certificate and, on my right, the completed divorce papers that I shall send to the court, this afternoon.

The former is a reminder of a happier day, a time when the things that have happened in the last few weeks would have been unimaginable.

The latter brings everything in to focus, it is a statement that there really is no turning back.

Unsurprisingly, this makes me sad.

I look at the details of her sins against our wedding vows, spelt out in honest terms in the court documents.

And I still feel sad.

I wish I could turn the clock back; wish I could fix things before they occurred.

But I can’t.

This is the real world; a place where pain and sadness now seem to live with me, every day.

I shall post these documents this afternoon.

And I shall continue to feel sad.

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4 Responses to The beginning of the end

  1. Bulldog says:

    You’ll get past it and be the better for it.

    Sadly, my youngest son is in the same position. Solicitor visit set for today.

  2. Clare says:

    FFS.. I go away for a month and I come back and you’re getting divorced, have had a random pixie to stay and Vin is all bashed up… I don’t know where to start ..
    Keep your head up x

  3. Looking at the divorce papers must result in a feeling of utter despair. It’s finality after all. But in your case, I agree that it will help you find closure. Get them filed as quickly as possbile and then focus on the next project.

  4. Brennig says:

    Thanks folks. I’ve passed through that stage. There’s still sadness but also feel very positive at moving on from this mess.